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suicidal "i wish you well. i watch you burn in humid hell. no sleeping pills no old tattoos will save you now. ill never change hes just to vague youll never say your beautiful."
ive been playing kingdom hearts all day...ive nearly beat it..you would think after 56 hours of playing it id have everything beat. but nope. im at the end just cant beat that winged demon. it kinda sucks.
me and my step dad are getting along okay i guess. i made him cheese cake lastnight. he said it was 'pretty' so that meant something to me.
i went and saw pat the other night before the whole inncodent with the bitch grandmother. that went...okay i guess. he treats me like everyone else, like im invisable. i shouldnt exept anything else from him i guess.
isaacs been gone for nearly 2 weeks now. hes in california or something...not sure..i needed someone the yesterday when i got kicked out..i called him..he wasnt home. so i was all alone..once again. im becoming use to it though. i guess the best song for most of my ex bfs is 'star no star' by jack off jill. it goes "when your the boy that i want ill be waiting right here. i dont know what to believe. sew up the soul make it fake. when your the boy that i want. ill be the girl that you hate. we end up dead in the end. star no star. you end up right here my friend. star no star." one of the best songs ever i think. to me it is..
i need a dog...that way ill have something to live for...i seem to hate every human being on this world..i dont understand why. but i do. its because of my grandmother...what she did was unhuman. my head hurts even thinking about her anymore. i think i need to take more pills... those 4 oxicottons didnt work for me...my head still pounds. my heart still hurts. and all i want to do is cry. is there anything to end this pain? please someone help me...*clings to herself* i dont know whats going on with me but i need to either die or figure things out. please. if theres a god then let him show me what to do! im so confused. should i die? is that what/all im ment for? ive been dealt the worst hand in the world. and my mom has too. i asked my mom the other day if we could both overdose and die together. she said there was more to life..i dont believe her. so far nothing has gone right...well..im off to take more oxicottons and asprin. wish me luck on overdosing....goodbye cruel world.
"she takes the pills to fall asleep. and dream that shes invisable. dont end her dreams."
July 17 2005, 04:52:22 UTC 6 years ago
Brandi!?!?!?!
Brandi?!??!? I'm always here for you!Brandi, Come talk to me.
I'm going to visit you remember?
I'm coming to you.
Please, talk to me!
I love you. I care deeply for you. I'll take you into my House with me, if you really want.
July 17 2005, 04:59:53 UTC 6 years ago
My Number!
In case you forgot,My number is 309-828-6846. I don't CARE who else sees it, I just want you to know, your welcome to call me when ever you need.
July 17 2005, 14:37:35 UTC 6 years ago
Star No Star is an awesome song, also.
First of all, the song is not called empty and so beautiful, it is called: Vivica. Congradulations of Kindgom Hearts and and making your situation livable. As for Pat, he treats everyone like they are invisible unless they are animated. And if horny Isaac is not around, I am still here always and you do not have to be alone. It is your choice. More important, you have NOT been dealt the worst hand in the world. It sucks, but there are so many out there in more horrible situations. You need to live. You are supposed to live. You have had joy and happiness in your life. You and I have had wonderful times. Do NOT throw it away because your grandmother is mean. I cannot stop you, though. Just remember: I love you and so do so many others.